Reason?

How come??
Testing my patience?
No idea what are you thinking about..
Long hair, gossip, female, EQ,
all come in one week.
If someone do not care about you,
Will he/she ask you this and that?
Not saying anything doesn't mean do not know anything about it.
Just know it, and forget it.
I
Never do it, never think about it.
Believe it or not, depend on you.

X.12.2010

That day,
that night,
Finally I burst,
In that rain..
Raining cats and dogs,
In the middle of the road,
I found myself,
Sobbing silently without any warnings or alert.
That night still raining,
we ran in the rain,
Wet from hair to toes.
Reaching the house,
"Take a bath, later fever, good night"..
When can I heard this again???

Came To An End...

After one month, I came back write my feeling here..
Gather the courage talking to her,
Halfway, she ran away..
The next day,
chatting with her roomate..
her roomate told me,
she did not have feel to me..
She dared not to tell me, scare to hurt me,
can't be friend anymore..
Thx her for telling me, although all those things I not willing to listen to it.
But, I had to accept her decision..
Yet, I wish that you can talk to me by yourself..
You told me before, don't waste my time on you..
But, spending the time on you isn't a waste.
Maybe to you, I am a bad guy,
I just simply don suit you..
The time with you,
Many things were my first time do so in my life..
I enjoyed it..It'll remain embedded in my mind.
Memories with you, were so vivid that I could hardly forget...

13.9

Ya..
Flew Away..
My A..
No longer be my side..
Perhaps I hv to think,
Am I set the standard to myself too high,
which I could hardly achieve..
Perhaps it was..
Have to set the standard according to my potential..
It might be an overload for me..
Not for now, reserve for next time..

Numbering

1 thing 2 tell u
3 words special 4 u.
5ing u
6ing u for 7al times
w8ing the opportunity
to9 10 o clock..
i miss you..

9.9

这一天，是好朋友的生日。
我不能和你一起庆祝，
但是，
这一天，
很巧妙的发生了一件事。
也许对他来说不算什么，
但，
对我而言，
那种感觉是非一般的，
意义不一样。
虽然好累，好累，
坚持的陪你到最后一刻。
这也是第一次只有我们俩而已。
望着你，一切，一切的烦恼都消失了。
什么疲劳，都不再是个问题。
珍惜与你相处的时刻，
很渴望时间能在那个时候停留下来，
让它永远的持续下去。

巴士，我不是赶不及，
而是不要搭那趟巴士，
就是想陪伴你，
那短暂的那一刻。
几个小时个光阴，
一眨眼就过去了。
临别时，
想对你说，却说不出口。
我还是把它给留在心里。
那一天，
虽然累了，
但累得很满足。
你说会有下次，但是多了一些人。
只陪你而已，和陪你们，
那意义相差天与地。


Despite the exhaustion inside myself,
I still have a enjoyable time with you..

Differences between guys n girls.

guy A: hey you have gf already?
guy B: yes.
guy A: how many?
__________________________________
girl A: have bf already??
girl B:yup..
girl A:huh.. how much?

某天某日

第一天，
我告诉你我的心声，
很简单的一句话，
含着一个意义，
只不懂你看得出来吗。
往往觉得，
你好像当作有人在讲废话。
我遵守了我的诺言，
可是你却违背了你对我的承诺，
你忘了。
那一天，
我对你说的，
不是在愚弄你。
我欺骗了所有人，却欺骗不了自己的心，
我的心，已经陪在你身旁一段时间了。

第二天，
那两个无理的小孩，
怎么这样霸道的？
当天我的语气不是很怎么样，
希望你们两个小孩明白。
在旁的他都会说可怜我，
难道你们这样狠心吗？

Stress

I told myself I can't fail this time.
But, at last, my effort met with little success
Due to unexpected silly mistake.
A simple mistake,
Lead to a little consequence.
No body to be blamed except myself.
I will try all my best to succeed it,
Let it become reality.
My target, My aim, my objective,
I will make it.....
Gain back the spirit,
Take the challenge in the face of adversity.
I will show to all of you,
AS is the easiest course in this world.

What to do?

I won't repeat the same silly mistake.
Will I get the same result?
I can't be as prefect as what you eager for.
But I also just a normal person.
The feeling,
Same as what she gave me before.
Cold and cool..
What things do I have to do now?
Continue silence
or
just start out my first step?
Will you?
And how about you?

新环境

对我的考验？
还是什么？
一个我不喜欢的地方，
不喜欢的环境，
我需要在这里呆多久？
宠物，
我满不喜欢的。
那只狗，
最好奉公守法，
不要搞破坏。
这里的环境，这里的学校，
真的令人产生反感。

远离了那宁静的家乡，
来到了一个繁忙的城市。
娱乐，吃的，用的，
样样都很不错。
但，
吵杂的环境，
我似乎不太习惯。
这样的环境，
我得漫漫的去适应和克服。
我什么都不敢说，
他们对我很好了，
不想再乱了。
哑巴吃黄连吧。

我爱他 - 丁当

离开

千千万万的不舍，
也抵挡不住光阴的流失。
过了不久，
就要离开这不属于我们两个世界的地方。
离开这里，
留下了对你唯一的遗憾。
一切都很快的成为过去，
变成了回忆。

我的心，
我的梦，
狠狠的我的心碎过，
却不会忘。
伤过，痛过，
就能好了？

不知何时，
才能见到你。
就算见到你，
或许已成为了陌生人。
这疲惫的旅程，
即将过上了句号。
如果你发现有一天没人向你的时候，
那时，
你的背影已经在我脑海里消失了。

我会，
继续一个
没有你的旅程。

煎炸与健康

停电了，
金宝大停电。
乘这个时候，去吃晚餐。
当我们order食物时，
那些煎炸的食物都不能吩咐，
厨房太暗了，看不到。
有几桌的客人也纷纷的离开了。
原来，我们每天所吃的都是煎炸的食物。
不会感到奇怪，
当我们的身子亮起了红灯。
为自己的健康着想吧！

我会的.

谢谢你们的提醒。
我会记住的。

NOTHING'S GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU (Glenn Medeiros)

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong

Our dreams are young
And we both know they'll take us
Where we want to go

Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy,
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too

No Eye Deer..

NO Eye Deer.
I don know how to say.
I really not mean that.

Biggest consolation

Chatting with you for two hours.
Everything was so straight and clear.
What you said to me,
really beyond my expectations.
I can't imagine it.
I apologies about what I did on that day,
I thought you know,
In fact, you already forgot about it and exasperated.
What I told you is true.
I never say what I cannot do it.
I really really hate to tear oneself away.
I don know when we all can meet,
I dislike the feeling.
Everything I said to you yesterday, none of them is a false statement.

After being straight between both of us,
everything was fine.
Everything will come to the end.
Time was not allowed me.
To your knowledge,
The promise between both of us,
I will remember it.
It was a consolable ending in Kampar.
All the best in future.
I will be leaving Kampar after I finished my examination on 30/4..
Miss you.
Keep in touch.

Week 6 Presentation..

Whole week,
The beginning until the end of the week,
keep on present.
First day: English group discussion
Last Day: Management studies and Webpage design.
Perhaps it is the last presentation that I had in Kampar Campus.



I also take the opportunity to take photo with some of my friends.
If not, no more chance already.
The smart girl with the same birthday with me..^^


Kampar, tata..

It happened again and again..

Last minute information,
It happened again and again,
In addition,
It was not the first instant.
Yosh!!!
So called"friend"
Returning back to hostel,
Think that we will fill up our stomach together.
But,
Seemed it might not same as what we thought.
One was having her sweet time and fun.
One was having a friendly preparation for future.
One was having a friendly preparation for tomorrow.
Everyone seemed has their own business.
And left a person sitting in front of a electronic device,
Slowly having the dinner with the accompanies of the device.
I can't blame you all.
That is your style.
I had to familiar with it.
I
No longer in your life.
Just a tree on the road side.
Last time the question was started with "when",
but now started with"Do you"..
Perhaps nearly come to the end of the year,
Too bored staying together,
You all had already something new to be done.
Something interesting thing yet are still waiting for you.
I just a backup,
when no longer any entertainments,
I will be the substitutions.
Everything would change in the end of the corner.
A turning across a sharp corner,
we would never know how many people will drop at that particular moment.
Used to it and it will be better.
Just continue my journey and let everything be the past.
Someone told me,
Life is a journey, not a destination.
It's a process, for us to learn.
Not a place, for us to land..
Life was an uphill struggle,
We had to take it in the face of adversity.
Everything will not same as what we thought.
Let it happen as what was it.

Stand and Strong.

Soon,
Everything will back to normal.
I was juts my overimaginative.
I complicated the simple thing as well.
I am overthinking.
Actually,
Everything just as simply,
And as easy as ABC.
Just I make it more complicated.
It might be normal to you,
But abnormal for me.
Anyway,
I can accept it the abnormal of it.
Everything will be fine.
I will be strong.
I will be happy always.
Won't be so emo anymore.
Everything will back to normal.
I will stand up, looking forward to future.
The bright future is waiting for me.
I won't disappointed it.
All the best to myself.

Transparent, Is that what Am I?

In the midst of the crowd,
I become transparent,
in your eyes.
Where am I?
You might never know.
In the midst of the night,
Rain drizzling.
I seemed to be vanished into the thin air.
I no longer in your eyes.
I just a third party,
Being ignored and abandoned.
In your eyes,
Who am I actually?
Just a figure rather than a person?
Or a person with transparent background.

In the midst of crowd,
I seemed nothing, just transparent.
You can't see me,
But I can see you by naked eyes.
And you,
Will only see me,
When the crowd decreased in size,
And finally become one.
That's me, the only one left behind the crowd.
There is useless keep turning back.
I wont be there forever.
At one moment, I will like what you think previously,
Vanished into the thin air, without any notifications.
Don't blame me.That is what you did to me.
I just gave back what you gave to me.
Fair enough and equity.
Take some time to care about who care about you.
I won't be so naive
Staying beside your side.
One day when you realized it,do not turn back,
Just take the leisure talk with others.
Keep on and on,
Until I no longer in your side.
I dislike the feeling of it.
It was enough for me. More than enough.
Burst my limitation.
Just do what you do,
I am transparent.
Do not regret later,
As I am a revenger..

A day Going To Be Insane..(20100401)

It was crazy.
It went insane.
She drove me up to the wall.
Everything happened without any warnings,
It was totally out of my expectations.
A sudden shock woke me up,
I would see a lot of star wondering around my brain.
What you mean by it?
For fun,just to suit the date and time,
Or you really mean it?
Please guild me a way, a path for me to follow
I appreciate it a lot,
No matter what will the result be.
Don't keep in silence. I scared.
In my opinion, you sure know I was pulling your legs.
The first part of it really just pulling your legs.
However, the another half of it, was true.
And would not be false temporarily for now.
What did you mean by saying that?
I really don't understand,
And I going to be insane,
Thinking about what you mean by the way.
Giving hope but not chance really is a cruel thing to me.
What was your motive saying that?
Just for fun or you really mean that?
I fervently hope that,
that day wasn't April fool,
And you would say the same thing to me again.
It was another way round.
But, unfortunately, that day was.
I dare not put much hope on it.
I hate the disappointed feeling fall on me again.
Everything be nature.
I eager to hear and know what is your mind thinking about.
No matter what they are,
Good or bad.
I do not care.
Failure rather than regret.

For you,ZM

I was reading "Twilight",
Using the candlelight.
The sky slowly turned into black.
It seemed will rain tonight,
I prayed that the sky will turn into bright.
But, she wasn't on my side.
I have to cancel the date with my bride.
I took my steps
into the black.
I took a seat at my back,
looking on my bride,
She was on my sight,
but no longer on my side.
I took my black beg,
wear in black,
Slowly taking my steps,
So, she will no longer in my sight.
That night,
I spent overnight,
miss her all the night,
think back what she said to me all the night.
Hope she will always be on my side,
However,she wont be beside my side.
Not only for tonight,
but for all the night..

Never and forever..

That afternoon,
Lots of people wore in black,
But you,
Is an exception.
The very first time,
And perhaps the last time,
I saw you well-immaculated.
It was indeed an insightful sight,
I would never denied.

The flesh,
as white as snow,
The scenery was indeed idyllic.
The voice,
soften and sweeten my heart,
It was prefect of my standard.

Everything was nothing,
but you,
was my everything.
The surrounding was so uncomfortable.
But I willing to sit there,
take a peek on you.
I no longer on the situation,
what I saw, what I care,
is all about you.
What you said to me,
what you tell me,
I will never forget,
ever and forever

The cruel inside you,
changed everything in a blink of eyes.
so cruel as if it wasn't you.
Sometime,
the word what u said to me,
still repeating in my dream,
woke me up in the middle of the night.
It was literally has a rock
without any warnings,
broke fragile heart into pieces.
What a unforgettable memory you left for me,
before the distance between us slowly increases in length.
Failure rather than regret.
No regret for me temporarily for now.
I had done it, but it was meet with little success.
The reason was very obvious.
I knew I wasn't as prefect as you take for granted for.
I knew I wasn't a cup of your tea.
Just a very simple, blank paper.
Nothing get your attention.
I am as simple as that.
I was so foolish,
thinking that it will make the ends meet.
Thinking back,
I laughed at myself,
how come I am so naive?
There is no any turning point between us.
Just a foot-stop and end of the whole story
Of my story,
In Kampar 2010..
The words you said,
I will never forget,
for now onwards.
Perhaps one day,
I will forget it, let it flow as time passes..

what I did in lecturer class for today

历史，慢慢的开始起步了

漫长的岁月，
这一年就快要过去了，
再过几个月，
我们就要向这里挥挥手，
告别了这里的生活，
这里的朋友，
这里的一切，一切，一切。

渐渐喜欢上大学的生活，
世事难料，
什么事情都没有一个肯定的答案。
千变万化，
让我无法预料。
每天醒来，
就想想今天会发生什么事情呢？
充满着期待，惊喜的一天。

我们之间的回忆，
很快的，
将会成为过去。
很难想象要离开这里的情景，
会是一个怎样的状况？
没有人晓得
——————————————————————————————————
我们之间的相处时间，
会越来越少，
直到变零。。
一个月之后，
我们也许再也见不到面了，
我你的离开，
不知何时再见。
各位朋友们，
后会有期，
有缘再相聚。

23March2010

Today Have EFC presentation, after that, we will have MS mid term examination.
As a chair, I quite worry about it..
We are the first group to present in that lecture class.
Stress + nervous..
Fortunately, we had make it..
Thank you for the cooperation between the group member..
After the presentation,
I took my seat..
You are so lonely..Sitting alone at the corner, studying..
I have initiative to accompany you, but I dare not do it.
When the class dismissed, you walked away from the lecture class,
as fast as you could.
I even don't have the chance to call you..
The Midterm test,
consider quite easy..
You, are the only thing that I regret for today.
I regret I shouldn't so shy.
You, my the only regret for today...CZM.

What the??

I born like that..
Being romantic-less
Being speechless
Being moody
Being thin
Being whatever I used to be..

Thin,not my fault..
I fervently hope I will become fatter.
I not as perfect as him/her.
I not as romantic as him/her.
Comment on God,
Set me fatter, pls.

Being smart,
The reason, the gap between us..
Why can't you think I stupid one?
Treat me as a normal people..
I hate the feeling,
the way you see me,
the way you speak,
the way you act and react
the way you do..
I not understand at all..
Positive and negative side,
which one should I choose?
Help me., pls...

A special Week..

Unexpected and unpredictable..
I had a shock in my life.
She called my name, but with a reason behind..
She changed to here, but when I asked her why,
she refused to give me the exact answer.
However, I probably will know, and you might never know.
You found a group, just to say good luck to you.
"Help me", a very very unfamiliar sentence from you to me..
It was too late, sorry to say that.
I can't lend you a helping hand.
How come at the urgent and vital situation,
you will just think about me,
call me,
ask me??
what can i said,
just at wrong time and wrong place..

Today, what I eager for so long time,
since that day I started to know about you,
today,
at school, at noon,
the thing was happened and the situation is what I take for granted for so long..
face to face, in same table..
I have make it.
But some weird thing happen.
At that time, I felt bored and restless kept seeing her.
You seemed so weird, the way you think..
I want to hear your sweat tone.
However, when I came back, I started to think about her, miss her.
how weird am I..
one positive side, one negative side,
which one should i choose??
[I still like you, but do you?]

webpage

Last sem keep on play programming...
this semester,
webpage..
i want to do my own server..
slowly study la..
php code,
i am chasing you...

Forget And on cloud nine

This few days,many stuffs had been happened.
too many things happened in a short period
And finally come to a conclusion..
switch（case 1)
To whom you are used to be..
I would like to see that..
World hasn't end yet.
Stand up, be confidence..

switch( case 2)
Forget all the past,
taking my new life journey,
you all will no longer at here,
gone away,
go to a place,
that is very very very far from me..
Pointless to know about you
hopeless to gain back what I take for granted for
useless to take care about you,
heartless, that who you are.
brainless, that actually you pretend to be..
I get the result I want..glad to hear that.

switch( case 3)
I won't be so stupid anymore..
I take my path,
you take your road..
You deserved to get it..
Revenger, that who am I..
Extreem overjoyed.
I was on cloud nine..
A nice day,
the day was prefect of my standard,
It will last for a few weeks time..
I hope..

误会？了解?活该？可怜？

误会？了解?
今天，我明白了。
那时我自己所想到的，
是误会你，还是终于了解你了？
今天你的行动告诉我你的答案。
最好没猜错吧。。
关心你是多余的，
体谅你是废的，
照顾你是我自己蠢，
装的，真的不懂？
那一天你问我的那两道问题，
我还是不懂你要什么。
你要玩，我就陪你玩，
今天有人告诉我，
不要去管她，
我听你的。
当天，
我告诉他故事，
换来的一个结论，
如果可以，忘了吧！
不值得。
you, ptd.

————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————
活该？可怜？
在同一个时间，
同一个地点，
我知道了真相。
要说你们活该，
还是要给你们关怀，
可怜你们？
真的很矛盾。。
难怪上次拿衣服时看到眼眶红红的。
你不知道你们之间发生了什么事，
你却告诉我一些你的感受，痛苦。
我又能做些什么？
我只要告诉你，
再过两个月，
我就离开了，
好好照顾自己。

心

过度的关心变成溺爱，
过度的溺爱成了厌恨。
心太软，
做不成大事。
你今天对我说的每一句话，
证明了我很傻。
我会牢牢地记住你那一番话。
所以，
心要狠，狠，狠。

狠

The leisure walk,
wake me up from something.
I no longer be there.
Situation had already changed.

不要让他人来左右我们的选择。
克制自己，
宽容自己，
保护自己，
相信自己，
期望自己，
坚持相信自己所作的决定是对的。

不需要别人的同情，
收回他们的虚伪，
我心领了。
学习聪明，
不问他人，
问自己。
学习聪明，
不折磨自己，
不让自己堕落，
振作起来，
去面对种种挑战。


不小心爱上了她，
也不小心梦见她，
不知不觉讨厌她，
渐渐的想忘了她。

心要够狠，才能做大事。。
不要优柔寡断，
下了决定就要去做，
不要破坏了自己的原则。

what u want?

You time management dam well..
Really in time..
The in time is out of our expectation.
Congratulation, you will be the one who being fired first..
Well,
if you don like it, said it..
you can just go home and play whatever u want，
do whatever you like.
I rather did what you need to do than seeing you there,
having nothing to do.
And still ask me anything wrong..

If you want to do it, keep on..
I will accompany..
The game never end..
Still in the progress..
Come on..

I already control my anger and emotion.
I don want to spoil the atmosphere as one of our members has her birthday today.
My patient had limit..
Don try to overlimit.
If burst, no good nah..

Command and Conquer General Zero Hours..

In two minutes time, hard enemy base flatten..

人心与人性

人心的阴险，
随着时间的流逝，
渐渐的，
显露出来了。
心中充满心机，
计谋，手段，
狐狸尾巴漏了出来。
这是天性，还是环境影响的？
人之初，性本善，
还是，
人之初，性本恶？
这世界是多么的黑暗，
这社会事多么的现实，
但，
更黑暗，更现实的，
无所不在。。

Hierarchy.
behavior，background, appearance,wealthy, status
You follow the another way round,that is upside down..
If I have the opportunity, I will close my eyes and let "it" pass by.
它对你来说，
是多么的重要，
反映了社会的现实

天真无暇，
我们来形容小孩子，
他们，
没有阴谋，
没有野心。
什么是尔虞我诈，
他们不知。
什么权利，物质，爱
他们不懂。
扮无知的人，
看起来人缘很好，
戴人喜欢，
但，
最险恶，最狡猾的，
就是他。
三十六计，
用了几招，
就够了。

星星

那一晚，
满天上挂着星星，
星星多多么的美，
颗颗都在闪烁。
星星，
把这黑暗的天空给照亮了。
有时候，
我们会发现自己，
目不转睛的望着一颗最闪亮，
最亮眼的星星。
当我们很想去握着那颗星星，
我们却发现自己，
无能为力。。

在人生中，
我们就像在天空里，
寻找着最闪亮，
最亮眼的星星。
当我们锁定目标后，
觉得自己距离那颗星星是在太远，
太远了。
也许，
我们选错了星星，
看上了一个拿不到，捉不到的星星。
那星星，
离我，
好遥远，好遥远。
直到有一天，
我们再也认不到了，
那颗我们想要，却要不到的星星，
因为，
天空里，
出现了另一颗闪亮，
亮眼的星星。

News

Date:5.3.10
Time:Evening
Venue:Somewhere at westlake
Person:someone
Event:spot someone
Explanation: I eager to see her. But when I faced to face with you, I have the feeling I don want to see her.. I have lots of things to tell you, but when spotted you, no words coming out from my mouth.Why ar??

Time: At night
Venue:somewhere at new town
Person:somebody
Event:quite night
Explanation: We spoke nothing on the journey to there. nothing much that we can talk about. Is I very bad in communication or public relation?
Else is it a torture going out with me?
I do not understand at all..


Date:7.3.10
Time:Ten minute to the midnight
Venue:home
Person:L V
Event:M.S.
Explanation:What are you thinking about? Same answers, same responds..
Be straight and be steady.. Don walk around it,but toward it..
I think I have to study how to communicate with people..
Dull Man

The things I did The whole Saturday Night

The five pieces fill up the square.


How about if added a small piece into the square.


It still fill up the square and contain six pieces.
^^

4.3.10

Saw her at westlake and have talk..
First time in a close distance.
After reaching home,
something happened.
First a few sentences shocked me a while..
My mind went blank for a moment..
You will have such respond is normal.
If for me, I will also have the same feeling..

A person will throw out things honestly are at the very first moment,
and you had already show it to me..
After than you just know what you had said.
Please mind your P's and Q's next time..
It will be worst if you do it and instilled this bad habit.

Anyway, I also apologise to you..Making you misunderstood, I sorry to that.
And u too, no need to say sorry for many times just because of it..
Chill..
Hope we will be back to normal soon..
I need time to digest the things. I fervently hope that it would not take a long period of time..

3.3.10

Today in school,
my friends wanted to take the notification result slips at Block A,
asking me whether I already took it or not.
I had already taken it, so that I had the opportunity to see her
She asked me did I really forget about her??
I kept silence for a short period.
Honestly, I would say NO..
This semester onward, I have no mood to talk about it.
At that night, I still recall back what had happen between us.
Everything always come to the end.
I would be here for two months, after that I will leave and move to another city to study.

The distance between us, really far and far.
We are impossible, this very first thing I already know since the first time I talk with you.
I already become more mad what you think who am I..
You would never know about it..
The time left me to have a look of you from a distance become lesser and lesser from days to days..
Two months, not very short and also not very long..
Just a blink of eye, it will pass..
Soon,
it will reach the time to say goodbye to you, Ah Chong...

2.3.2010

Things to be considered before marriage..
This is the topic to discuss in the lecturer class.
Materialistic, it is so important?
Money is not everything, we can do nothing without money..
But sad to say,
most of the people judge this world by the value of money..
I also not an exception..
Money? Is it so important to the human beings?
It is a principal factor that affect most of the people to make any decisions.
Vitamin M, 4C,the people are eager to have all of them..
Judge this world by the value of money, money make everything,
no money no talk..
All in their minds, are all about $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$...
My friend even told me,
Have money, you can own the world..
Having thousand, million or even billion of money,
do it really make sense?
Being materialistic, wearing branded clothes, pants, shoes,
have bungalow, sport cars(Lambo), wearing luxury jewellery.
Being wealth are the dreams of all the human beings in this world,
no one can denied it..
No matter how much money you have, if one day,
the death is just knocking on our door,
it will be
钱在银行，人在天堂..

CNY Boring life

Don know why, this year CNY, really don have mood to celebrate it..
Nothing special about it anymore..
Not like when we are in the childhood,
we eager to CNY.
but..
This year CNY,
Gaming,gambling,sleeping,eating,watching TV..
finish and end of the story..
Boring..

24Feb,a message woke me from asleep..
0.05..
jz a miss..
can delete the minus behind it...
But what to do,
I cannot change the truth..
The boring holiday came to the end..
I dislike come to kampar.. I hate hate hate hate..
End.

Ipoh Journey

After finishing our final exam in second semester ,
The day after, five of us went to Ipoh..
Around 9.30, we went to bus station by taxi.
The taxi uncle dam good. Gave us 2 riggit each as angpao..
TAxi fee is RM5..
He lost RM 5 in the end.....
But for long run, he gained more than what he lost.....

We took bus go to Ipoh. When reached Ipoh, straight took bus to our destination,Ipoh Parade.
But something must be concerned, when we all reached Ipoh Parade, all of us still do not go down from the bus. We all attracted to that building which so called"solar Energy buliding":)until that aunty informed us.. lol..

We had our lunch at the food court there.Then shopping..
Firstly, I went to buy my jeans..They helped me to make choice.
We accidentally walked into Popular and looked at some books..
That lalazai spent more than all of us just in bought the books..swt..
After shopping, a while after, we decided to take a rest..
Then, camera started..





Around 6.00pm, we took BD car to bus station.. Around 8pm, we reached home in Kampar.
Although the journey was quite tiring, but it is fun to go out with them..

Luck? Effort?

#include < stdio.h >
int main ( )
{
char a;
printf("99%c of effort & 1%c of luck, will I get what I take for granted?\n",37,37);
printf("70%c of effort & 30%c of luck, will I get what I take for granted?\n",37,37);
printf("50%c of effort & 50%c of luck, will I get what I take for granted?\n\n",37,37);

printf("Efforts That I made I will never regret..\n"
"I cannot guarantee to you that I can make it..\n"
"I have tried my best in order to make my words to you..\n"
"Depend on luck... Hope that it will always be on my side,\n"
"forever and ever...\n\n"
"You become my catalyst that encourage me to do that..\n"
"Nothing will stop me..I will show you,\n"
"I am not as 'mad' as you think, because I will be more mad that what you think..\n"
"****************************************\n"
"*if I not 'mad',will you be on my side?*\n"
"****************************************\n");
printf("press any key to see something>>");
scanf("%c",&a);
printf(
" ** ** * **** ****\n"
"* * * * * * * \n"
"* * * * * * \n"
"* * * **** **** \n"
"* * * * *\n"
"* * * * *\n"
"* * * ***** **** \n\n"
" * * ****** * *\n"
" * * * * * *\n"
" * * * * *\n"
" * * * * *\n"
" * * * * *\n"
" * * * * *\n"
" * ****** *****\n");
//think about it, how to see what the symbols represent.
//[hint:run in microsoft visual studio.. difficulty:9/10
exit(-1);
}

莎莎男.............真的准吗？

莎莎男
性格：附有数字化装置的正义之士
对于接受和传递讯息皆由左脑执行的[莎莎]男来说，判断事情的基准就是“正不正确”。
凡事都从正面着手研究，热中于数据、讯息的收集和分析，会因自己不知道的情报缺失而有弄错的疑虑，如此稳扎稳打的你，想必也赢得许多人的信赖吧？朋友们还视你为“博学先生”，非常器重你。
做事讲究“步骤”。由于比任何人都害怕承担风险，属于一个个解决问题、采取按部就班的类型。如果中途被全盘推翻的话，会有很大的压力。脑袋里总是条理分明的你，喜欢有逻辑性的对话，觉得谈话概括、笼统，或用字遣词模棱两可的人很随便，不想成为那样的人。此外，与其好几个人一起杂谈，你宁可一对一地慢慢深谈。由于不善于体察人的情感和意图，所以会犯本质性的错误，或是太过正经而与人结怨，也会给人不知变通的感觉。
在饮酒聚会上，只有你一个人跟众人的步调不同，常常无法融入现场气氛中。理想高，追求完美，但由于标准只根据自己的经验和所知来设定，所以周遭的人不但感觉不出你的品味，甚至会觉得你自命不凡。太过强调自己的主张的话，会被人看做是偏执狂。

工作：深的信赖的工匠气质
[莎莎]男做事讲求确实、可靠，循序渐进。面对被交付的课题，会从各个方面寻求解答，通常会选择最安全又正确的方法让事情继续推进。有毅力、搜集信息和勤学不怠的态度，想必深得周遭朋友的信赖。程序设计师、事务性工作等，在组织中负责制造、销售等部门内一个人埋头苦干的工作，压力较少，可以说比较适合[莎莎]男。
有时候虽然会固执己见，滔滔不绝地说出一堆道理和知识，而使得他人感到茫然、不知如何是好，但是如果有个处世灵活的上司，就会很有技巧地予以规诫，让他平稳地发挥所长。不适合需要市场转换主意或有个人特色技艺的工作。而必须有服务精神和耐性等接待顾客的行业，劝你最好死了这条心吧。

金钱：重视说明书的实事求是派
基本上，[莎莎]男是不会拿钱来冒险、稳健踏实的人。由于对获得暴利之类的事不感兴趣，属于顺其自然积累财富的类型。
买便宜货是因为“没什么讲究的”；奢侈的时候则说因为“质量好”、“喜欢收藏”等，总是会赋予金钱一个意义，自己先在心里仔细考虑之后再消费。有所坚持时，会透过网络或型号，详细研究产品说明说、消费评价等，或是仔细询问店员；购买之后，再将这些知识告诉周遭朋友。也因为这样，一旦热衷于某种嗜好、收藏或风俗等的时候，很可能就大笔大笔地砸下金钱。看似冷静，又似乎容易受巧妙设计的骗术所吸引上当。不合常理的借贷，少碰为妙！此类型的人，不适合赌博。

恋爱：在理想与现实的夹缝中求生存
由于是生性一丝不苟的凡人，会循序渐进地与对方交往。一边参考恋爱指南，还一边认真地研究约会路线或是求爱的方法等。也可以说是个诚恳又可爱的男人吧？与他交往或许少有因紧张感而全身发烫、发抖的体验，但却平凡而安定。
基本上因为个性晚熟，必须花点时间才引燃他的热情。不过，就算是单相思，就算感受不到对方的热情，[莎莎]男也不会用情不专。一旦喜欢上一个人，就不会移情别恋，从一而终。
另一方面，完美主义的[莎莎]男，会在心里描绘出一幅理想女性的图像。老是猜不透女人心被耍得团团转的他，若是无法按照自己所想的与对方交往，便感觉压力愈来愈大。而渐渐觉得这种自己无法掌握、活生生的女人很麻烦，也可能不知不觉地就沉迷于“虚拟的女性”……由于是个固执己见的人，应该比较适合顺从的女人吧。
对于性，欲望强烈，很重视如何增加快感的方法。顺利的话，就自信满满；若是对方无法配合，大多就借由喜欢的影像或图片自己解决。
作为结婚对象，[莎莎]男可以说是实在、让人放心的伴侣。

休息

呆在学校约十个小时，
累了，
晚餐后本来想休息一两个小时的，
结果一醒来天亮了。
也许我真的需要休息。。
我连电话都不接，
继续我的睡眠， 哈哈。。
开工了。。

湖旁-等待

我不想管你，
不要理你，
不会强逼你，
更不会关心你，
那是你自己的选择，
命运掌握早你自己的手里，
你想做什么，
你要做什么，
你要怎样做，
你喜欢就好。
那是你的自由，
我没有权力干涉你的自由。
为了不让让历史重演，
所以我做了决定，
放了你。
但
我永远都站在湖旁等你，
等你开口的那一天。

Busy Weeks..

This Two weeks, dam it..
I was using all this two weeks time just to study and do past year.. Almost X sets..
And still spent one hour face to face to that LEECH.How funny was it..
Mr Lim office was too crowded..
Spent whole day just want to understand that looping..
wasting my memory to memorize all the mechanisms, chemical reactions for chemistry and theory for public speaking.
I even wrote essay for Ah Ping to mark.......
Go to ask the lecturer I don like about some of the math past year questions.
Somehow or rather, CHEW is very good in interpersonal communication, but not in public communication.. The second time I understood what he said.. ^^
Luckily that Kang gave me the answer for 09 past year, make the things easier... haha
Hopefully all these are worth to be done.....God bless.
Wish you all all the best and good luck for final exam.....

From,
浪子

Extraordinary Journey

DEATH ROAD, WE EXPLORE IT..
Around 4.30pm, we all gathered at bus stop..
Around 4.45pm, six of us departed to death road..
The weather was prefect of our standards although the sun still high hang up in the sky.
It is better to be scorchingly hot day rather than dismal sky and the ominously dark cloud around be seen around. If it rain cats and dogs, it will be a burden for us to penetrate into the death road.

Different people, different transports..But same destination.
These are our transports... Dam it.

Without a moment to waste, we departed toward to our destination. Roughly 40degree slope to cycle upward.. The journey was exhausted and tiring as there was more load behind my bike.. However, I managed to cycle to there..
For the whole journey, the road was bumpy. Potholes could be seen around along the path..I wondering how the girl behind me can bare with the bumpy road. She still told me that her ass was in pain.. LOLZ..

The road like our life. Life as if an uphill struggle. We should never gave up in the face of adversity. We should remained resolute despite the seemingly insurmountable odds against us.. Take all the challenge in stride.

The road was sandy and it made the cyclists had difficulty to cycle along it. In some occasion, my friend almost fall down from the bike. I wasn't an exception too.. The sandy path, sometimes full of small stones made the journey become harder to travel. However, because of our determination, we managed to do it..

The very first destination was a duck farm. Perhaps due to the influence of cartoon, many of them thought that ducks are yellow in colour. Actually ducks usually are white in colour. Sweat.. As I reached the duck farm, without any hesitation, I took out my camera which I brought along and snapped some photo of it. The smell at there was quite nauseating as the waste products of these particular animals.
There were some pictures..Enjoy.




Ducks, so cute. The surrounding was so comfortable as if we were transcended into ethereal realm. Mere words could not be described the scenery at there. It is better to see once than hear a hundred times.Seeing is believing.

The next destination
Do you all know what tree was that?
It was cotton tree.. First time see this cotton tree..
All of us got overboard. We wasted our every ounces of energy throwing stick upward just to bring the cotton seed down to the ground. When recalled back, it was really really very stupid action.
Hey, beehive above.. Stop it before you regret. haha. Just Joke..

Actually inside there had some seeds that we can just reach it.
The outlook of the seeds.
Actually nothing special about it.. But what inside was totally different story.
That girl still said like corn.
Hmm. Ate it... Yummy..
Cotton

Then, We sat at the ground there, while enjoying the beauty of the nature, we also started to fill up our empty stomach. Although it just a dessert, but can have our tea time at such place was really first time. Pity to that camera, your job had started.

Chit Chat, taking photo, talking nonsense were our favourite common hobby. We were having a field day doing those actions..

Here a funny photo..Hey man.. Are you practice matching? haha
Strategy To Get Rid of The Stress Studying in UTAR

Time passes very fast. Time travels in the speed of light, especially in enjoyable time. In a blink of eyes, when I glanced my watch, the digital watch showed 18:00It was already evening. We had to stop our journey and went back to where we were. Dusk was fast approaching. If we do not make our way out, we will have difficulty groping in dark. Before we leave, left some memories at the lake which just a hop and a hip away from the the cotton tree farms.

Sunset.




Memories That Worth To Be Treasured. Deeply Embedded In Our Mind

<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< THE END >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

The Road Not Taken

Shadow

Walking beside the lake,
slowly and steadily..
Enjoy the nature of the earth.
The scenery was idyllic.
The lapping sound of the water against the shore can be heard.
It was so soothing as if the music to our ears.
It was indeed soothing.

The dismal sky was partially filled with the twinkle stars.
Yet the dismal sky gave as a sign that
the heaven will unleash its fury to the earth soon.
But we just ignore it.
Some of the guys there fishing beside the lake,
I was amazed by their patience.
They can wait for seemed like an eternity just to catch the fishes.
At there, some couples were taking their own sweat times dating with the love's one
while enjoying the breathtaking scene beside the lake.

In contrast, four of us took out our phones as usual,
but we were not sending any messages nor phone anyone else.
The purpose of taking out the phone was very simple.
Take the photo of our shadows.

Shadow, formation of the blockage of the light
as we know, light travels in the straight path.

We are not alone. We wont feel lonely.
Why?
As long as the light was presence,
shadow will always follow us,
no matter where we go.
Shadow will always be our best accompanists.
Shadow is mischievous by nature,
no matter how well we are,
no matter how clever we are,
we will not catch our own shadows.
The Four shadow,
Indicate love, friendship, caring & entertain among four of us.
We care each others, love each others.
Entertain ourselves(in short SS).
Our friendships will be the strongest.
Among us, we no need to try our bests to remember each others,
try to think about each others,
miss each others.
It is stem of
we never forget about each others.
The time, the days, the things we shared and spent among four of us,
although it was already past, but
it will remain deeply embedded in our minds,
ever and forever...

It was a special night.
My campus looked extraordinary awesome and nice at that night.

However....
The silence of the night was broken by the engines' sound of the motorbike.
It was irritating. Sound pollution..

My Words To You

Dear shadow,
Hopefully I will write this post to you for the last and very last time. My body starts to wane from hours to hours, days to days, months to months. I felt exciting to there. I know it wasn't the stimulating learning environment I was anticipating. Being honest, I eager go there just because of you and that was very, very stupid. I seek every nook and corner just want to have a look at you. Sometimes the chair is empty while sometimes the chair is occupied by others. You was so devastating and I cannot resist my temptation looking at you when you are in my sight range.

I wondered nostalgically. If can, I hope the time can stop at that moment forever, and ever. That was the first and the last time, I took my time looking at you. It was a giggle. That day,I felt my breathing gradually creeping toward hyperventilation as approached you. Looking at you make me comfort.I know my diplomatic not very good. Between both of us, nothing that we can prattled about. We kept silence all the time.
I will treasure that memories to the end of my life although it might simple.

Somehow or rather, everything wasn't happened as we took for granted. That night, as I walked passed by, I seemed to see a familiar looking. When I looked carefully, it was you. Everything appeared in a twinkle of my eyes. At that time, I literally sat at there for seem to an eternity although just a few minutes passed by. Disappointment flooded through me as my eyes unerringly focused the table a stone's throw away from me. There are the two and only two of you. I think you was completely caught by surprise of our presence. You gave a vague smile when seeing us. That night, I lost my appetite having my supper as my stomach was already full---of disappointment. That scene still fresh inside my mind as it was just happened yesterday.

That came to the end of the story between both of us. We cannot be more than friends. Fortunately it did not aggravate the relationship between us. I knew I unable to fill up his shoes. How silly am I as sometime I still think that I managed to be. There are nothing that could do except to wish you. I can't change you, the only person that can change you, is yourself. Sometimes, I even kept the distance between us as far as I could. I dare not look at you. The way you look at me, seemed like stared at me, no emotion, cold.. It was irritating. One day, you pop out the conversation with me, chat with me and make joke with me. It seemed to be lighted lamp in my heart. However, it was just my over imaginative. It was really, really idiot thinking.

Nothing that I do not understand when looking at the questions paper. I will take it all in once. But, no matter how many I did, no matter how hard I try my best to understand, I still cannot get to know what are you thinking about. It just met with little success. How useless I was. Anyway, thank for your presence. I learned something new that cannot get, neither from the textbooks nor through internet. I will take all the challenges in the face of adversity, no matter where am I, when is it and how is it. Because of you, I try my best to do anything that I already make my words towards you. Somehow I could not manage to do it. You still console me that it was alright. Being seeking to prevail over others by nature, I still want to prove to you and make my words to you. I will be someone that as described by you, an "mad" guy. Time will reveal all the truth.

We as if chasing the shadow with each other, unable to get close to each others.Once I started to chase against the shadow, the shadow will keep running away from me at a constant distance. I will make myself to forget about you. One day, if you feel that no one chase against the shadow, there is the time I already get rid of the loneliness, and that day will be the day I already forget about you.

Wish you all the best in future. Good luck.

From
shadow chaser.

垂钓

垂钓，
是一种很健康的爱好。
为何这么说呢？
钓鱼可以培养他人的耐性，
能显示出一个人稳重的性格。
垂钓，
也可以让人体验到世界的美，
那迷人的风景，
使人把烦恼抛到九霄云外，
尽情地享受，
仿佛走入了世外桃源。

在大学里，
垂钓也含了不一样的定义。
这里所谓的垂钓有三种含义，
第一：姜太公钓鱼，愿者上钩；
第二：渔翁钓鱼，上钩了；
第三：老太婆钓鱼，没放鱼饵；

[姜太公钓鱼，愿者上钩]
含义：那鱼饵的装饰,外表,样样都很完美，使到水里的鱼儿也忍不住跳了起来，上钩了。
[渔翁钓鱼，上钩了]
含义：那鱼饵在水里呆了一段时间，希望所要的鱼儿上钩，结果梦想成真了。
[老太婆钓鱼，没放鱼饵]
含义：在上课时打瞌睡咯。。

在那新的一年，
不知道有几条鱼被上钩了，成就了好几对鸳鸯。
但是最近还是很多人在钓鱼，
在我身旁的也不例外，
你慢慢钓吧！
我只想看结果。

而我呢？
也努力的钓，继续地钓，
只是我钓的不是鱼儿，
钓鱼，也许不适合我，
钓虾，也许会比较好，
而虾，什么是虾？
虾的定义又是什么？
你们就自己发挥你们的创意吧，
慢慢想！！

我也把我的鱼饵换了，
换回以前的我，
继续钓虾！！
新的一年，
新的开始，
新的鱼饵，
让我们把欢乐的回忆保留着，
忘掉那痛苦的，
这样我们的生活才会精彩，
不是吗？
这就是浪子对垂钓的看法和钓鱼方法。

浪子的家（HOME）

Home
H-House
O-Of
M-Mine,
E-Ever

House of mine,ever..
Home to me, is a very special place.
Since young, home to us is a heaven. We will get everything that we needed,
we wanted at home.
Since young, being a naive and innocent,
The only thing that come to our mind,
Home is the only place for us.
Gain love, warmth, console.
When We grow bigger and bigger, home not longer a home

That day, there are just the two and only two persons in that home.
They are eagerly waiting for our returns.
How happy are they when they saw us.
Everything is well prepared.
The things we used, we ate, we wanted all are prepared in front of our eyes.
The only that we need to do, is just use it, eat it and take it.

My dad become more and more forgetful. Your actions and reactions become slower and slower. Is this related to whom a few thousands above the sea level?
Is will become a burden to you? You worried about her, isn't?
My mum, her health deteriorated from days to days, months to months, years to years.
You still even asked me, I also don know whether I still can see you graduate from the university?
Erm..why no?
My family, my home, When will it become like that?
Everything had changed.
Home had become a place for both of you,
a place for you all,
to wait for our returns.
She already no longer a young kid,
she has her own mind. You all just let her be.
There are nothing much that you all can worry about her.

To parent:
There is a will, there is a way.
Everything will be fine at the end, don worry too much.
Can you all don like that?Do you all know how sad am I when I saw you all like that?
To sister:
Come down...There is not a suitable place for you to work.
Do you ever know how much your parent worry about your safety and future?
Every time they chatted with me, wont out from your topic.
"Ah girl" here "Ah girl" there.
If you still a human, why don you pity them?
Is this the way as a child treat your parent?
****

When I was young: home to me is everything
When become bigger and bigger: home to me is a place for me to see my parent,
to make them happy, chat with them
In my parent mind, home to them, is a place to wait for their children to return.
In sister mind, home to her, just a place to sleep, eat and rest after being punished by the AM.

When the home will be a place for all of us, sitting together, enjoy the life??
hope this will be as soon as possible.
___________________________________________________
家，
小时候，
家是一个很特别的地方
我们很肯定地说，
家是我们可以得到温暖，爱，关怀的地方。
家
就像王宫，无所不有，
我们要的，想的，
样样都有。

随着时间的流逝，
慢慢的，家的定义也跟着改变了。
要维持一个家，
需要很大的责任。
每个人也扮演着很重要的角色。

那天，当我踏入家里，
我看到了他们的期待，
期待着，
等着我们的归来。
在家里的那两个人，充满着欢乐，
脸上的笑容证明了一切。
爸，一天比一天的散忘，动作也缓慢了许多。
妈，您的健康一天比一天的更加虽衰弱。
你们是不是很担心那位小姐呢？
你们俩的口里，很少会离开他的话题。
他已经长大了，他有自己的想法，
你们就让他去吧！没有什么好操心的！

现在的我，
家：一个让我见到你们，陪你们聊天的地方。
在你们心里
家：一个让你们等待我们归来的地方。
在他心里
家：一个让他休息，睡觉，吃喝的地方。

[三年后：
我会给你们一个家，
一个实实在在，完整的家！]

scary journey.

Friday afternoon--Journey back to hometown..
A replacement driver came in and asked
"Siapa tau jalan pi butterworth punya?"
Oh my God, this driver don know how to go to Butterworth.
He also said he just replaced another driver for urgent purpose.
He still dare said he just slept for only one hour last night..
WTF..
Fortunately a Malay guy knew the path, and chatted with him the whole journey..
They don thirty one leh..Pro..
Then, the driver very good, stopped by at a petrol station for us to answer the call of nature.
Actually, he spent the half hour asking how to go out from SP..
Dam it..


Sunday afternoon-Journey back to Kampar.
Very surprise today the bus didnot stop at Butterworth bus station.
If continue like that, we will reach kampar around 8.
Suddnely, out of the blue,
during the path of uphill in the highway..
"pang pang pang pang"
The bus broke down..
That bus driver acted pro went down and repaired.
Then he came up..
Someone said" Pandu slow slow la."
The bus moved slower than a ten-wheel lorry.Ish, wasting my time.
After Ipoh toll,
"Kampar dan Tapak punya turun, tukar bus, Ipoh duk sini."
Change bus lo..
At first no place to sit. Stand for a while.
After then, continue to sleep..
Finally, I reached at Kampar Old Town bus station.
The story haven't finish yet..
We called taxi.
The taxi went into westlake and send that GIGI and that "intruder" back to home.
When stopped at lalazai house, the taxi broke down..
I had to take my luggage and walked back home, luckily not a long distance.
A scary journey.

陪伴

谢谢你们的陪伴，
陪伴着我走过这晚上，
这晚上的回忆让我体验到什么叫做温暖。
这份温暖，
我让把它紧握在手里，
保留着它。
有了你们的陪伴，
告别了孤单的日子。

Carbon...

Tomorrow try 1,000,000.. haha



This few days nothing to do.
Play back the need for speed carbon.. .
release my stress when play it.. huh.. syok.

浪子的生活

哭过，泪过，就算了，
我们的人生，
把美好的回忆记着，
忘了那些悲伤的。
不是你的，永远都不会是你的，
如果是你的，
最终还是归你所有。

为了一个人，
压抑着自己的情绪，
值得吗？
总有一天，
你遇到更好的。。

人生就像一个长途游轮，
很长，很长。
这游轮，
又会在世界各码头停留。
他到了那站，
他下了船，
不代表没有人会上来了。
这游轮继续的，
慢慢一个接一个码头停留，
哪知有一天，
我们会找到了我们想停留在那里的码头。。

这就是浪子的生活。
浪子那飘浮不定的心，
那冰冷的心，
终有一天，
到了某一站，
会有人，
把那冰冷的心给融化了。

I

I
normal student,
normal life,
nothing special,
nobody want,
nobody care,
no need anyone,
nothing to be sad,
nodding my head and say,
nothing is impossible.

Wind was still blowing in the direction toward me,
Wave was still lapping against the chores.
Water was still running out from the pipe.
Wallet was still been seen all around the world.
Without you,
World inside mine wont end.
Wondering for quite a long time,
wasn't I too foolish if I do so.

So,
something must be done..
Stars twinkle above the blue sky,
shining a path for me.
saving every ounce of energy,
sadness gone away from me..
starting a new journey in a new year..
starting a new life of me in a new year..
Somehow or rather,
Something new will happen soon..
Soon,
seeking for my new life,
see everything at the end of the journey..

特别的新年礼物，拜你所赐

今天，
你送我了一个很特别的新年礼物。。
我收到这礼物时，
我的心，
就像玻璃，狠狠的被抛了下来，
碎了。
自从那天起，我渐渐的开始喜欢上你。
这两天没有你的出现，悄悄的，
我想你了。。
你问我为何想你，为何不去找她？
原因只有一个，
我就是喜欢你。。
一开始，我以为我喜欢你是因为逃避那个人，
但是，这两天，我想了很久，
我确定我的心慢慢的容下你了。
有时候，我很佩服我自己，
我知道一切真相之后，
我还是很坚强的，仍然和我的朋友一起完成了assignment。
我还是那样，和他们开玩笑，但是我外表是笑了，
但是我的心却是那酸酸的，笑不起来。
我压抑着我自己的心情，陪他们吃晚餐。
我控制自己，不可以让他们看到我这心碎的那一幕。
我尽量的掩饰我自己，虽然当时的我做到了，
可是现在坐在电脑打字的我，
不禁的，
我的眼眶，慢慢的，积水了。
事实是残酷的。
也很谢谢你向我说出了这残酷的事实。
我自己很想知道，
我到底有什么不好，
为何命运要这样做弄我。。
你不需要向我说对不起，
因为这些都不是你的错，
都是我自己。
在考场上，
命运给了我一个很好的钥匙，
这钥匙万能，使我在考场上不会遇到问题。
但是在感情上，
命运却把握我抛入了迷宫，
一个让我做不着头脑的谜底。。
这未免太天渊之别了吧？

他告诉我
天不把她让给你，因为天要把最好的留给你自己。
我知道你在安慰我，也很谢谢你的好意，我心领了。

我对你也许很得不太了解，
我开始不知道了，
你说的那句话是真的，
那句是假的？
还是从头到尾你都在说谎？
这就是一个骗局？

认识你，
最初的天堂，
最好的荒唐。
不是属于我的，我无法去强求。
我写不下去了。。
你这“特别”的新年礼物，我收到了。
这就是浪子的命运。
浪子阿，
浪子阿，
回头是岸吧，浪子！

2-1-10

Today played basketball and football at westlake..
This is the first time I played football in Kampar..
Dam fun and enjoyable.
although my legs a bit pain and reddish,
but i had enjoyed it a lot..
Thank to all of them that accompany me played it..
I quite pitied about the ball,
all my fury, all my anger,
All I release on the ball.
Long time I don experience it already.
FUN although exhausted..

Sometimes

阿敏：
Sometimes, I still recall back what had happened at that night.
I try to tell myself, I will forget you.
Somehow or rather, I cannot make it.
My new year wish:
I hope that I managed to forget you as soon as possible.

Sometimes, I also wondering
whether is a fault recognise with you..
But because of your presence, I just know what mean by life..
Life is an uphill struggle, everything wont exactly as what we need,
what we want, what we hope for..
I learned many things because of you.
I will not throw the towel in the face of adversity.
Thank for your presence in my life.
Altough we cannot welcome the year 2010.
but, I will treasure the memories until the end of my life.
forever.. forever..
___________________________________________________

Ali..
Sometime, I think myself,
what actually do you need..
Am I camouflage? Or you just pretend don met me?
You prefer asked another, and also dare not come with me?
Do you really feel such a big pressure sitting beside me?
Smart will be tha gap between us.
It will be a blockage between us.
I not as perfect as you think, I not as good as you think.
Somehow or rather,
I believe you can do it,same as me,
just your laziness had failed you from success.
Procastination is the thief of time..
Just a few weeks left will be the final exam.
Good luck to you.
__________________________________________________

How we know each other because of providence,
We know each other in a special way,
We get to know each other through the thin air..
We build our friendship by using the virtual contact.
Now already Year 2010.
Time was not on our side.
Another half year I will be leaving here.
Take Care.