For you,ZM

I was reading "Twilight",
Using the candlelight.
The sky slowly turned into black.
It seemed will rain tonight,
I prayed that the sky will turn into bright.
But, she wasn't on my side.
I have to cancel the date with my bride.
I took my steps
into the black.
I took a seat at my back,
looking on my bride,
She was on my sight,
but no longer on my side.
I took my black beg,
wear in black,
Slowly taking my steps,
So, she will no longer in my sight.
That night,
I spent overnight,
miss her all the night,
think back what she said to me all the night.
Hope she will always be on my side,
However,she wont be beside my side.
Not only for tonight,
but for all the night..

Never and forever..

That afternoon,
Lots of people wore in black,
But you,
Is an exception.
The very first time,
And perhaps the last time,
I saw you well-immaculated.
It was indeed an insightful sight,
I would never denied.

The flesh,
as white as snow,
The scenery was indeed idyllic.
The voice,
soften and sweeten my heart,
It was prefect of my standard.

Everything was nothing,
but you,
was my everything.
The surrounding was so uncomfortable.
But I willing to sit there,
take a peek on you.
I no longer on the situation,
what I saw, what I care,
is all about you.
What you said to me,
what you tell me,
I will never forget,
ever and forever

The cruel inside you,
changed everything in a blink of eyes.
so cruel as if it wasn't you.
Sometime,
the word what u said to me,
still repeating in my dream,
woke me up in the middle of the night.
It was literally has a rock
without any warnings,
broke fragile heart into pieces.
What a unforgettable memory you left for me,
before the distance between us slowly increases in length.
Failure rather than regret.
No regret for me temporarily for now.
I had done it, but it was meet with little success.
The reason was very obvious.
I knew I wasn't as prefect as you take for granted for.
I knew I wasn't a cup of your tea.
Just a very simple, blank paper.
Nothing get your attention.
I am as simple as that.
I was so foolish,
thinking that it will make the ends meet.
Thinking back,
I laughed at myself,
how come I am so naive?
There is no any turning point between us.
Just a foot-stop and end of the whole story
Of my story,
In Kampar 2010..
The words you said,
I will never forget,
for now onwards.
Perhaps one day,
I will forget it, let it flow as time passes..

what I did in lecturer class for today

历史，慢慢的开始起步了

漫长的岁月，
这一年就快要过去了，
再过几个月，
我们就要向这里挥挥手，
告别了这里的生活，
这里的朋友，
这里的一切，一切，一切。

渐渐喜欢上大学的生活，
世事难料，
什么事情都没有一个肯定的答案。
千变万化，
让我无法预料。
每天醒来，
就想想今天会发生什么事情呢？
充满着期待，惊喜的一天。

我们之间的回忆，
很快的，
将会成为过去。
很难想象要离开这里的情景，
会是一个怎样的状况？
没有人晓得
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我们之间的相处时间，
会越来越少，
直到变零。。
一个月之后，
我们也许再也见不到面了，
我你的离开，
不知何时再见。
各位朋友们，
后会有期，
有缘再相聚。

23March2010

Today Have EFC presentation, after that, we will have MS mid term examination.
As a chair, I quite worry about it..
We are the first group to present in that lecture class.
Stress + nervous..
Fortunately, we had make it..
Thank you for the cooperation between the group member..
After the presentation,
I took my seat..
You are so lonely..Sitting alone at the corner, studying..
I have initiative to accompany you, but I dare not do it.
When the class dismissed, you walked away from the lecture class,
as fast as you could.
I even don't have the chance to call you..
The Midterm test,
consider quite easy..
You, are the only thing that I regret for today.
I regret I shouldn't so shy.
You, my the only regret for today...CZM.

What the??

I born like that..
Being romantic-less
Being speechless
Being moody
Being thin
Being whatever I used to be..

Thin,not my fault..
I fervently hope I will become fatter.
I not as perfect as him/her.
I not as romantic as him/her.
Comment on God,
Set me fatter, pls.

Being smart,
The reason, the gap between us..
Why can't you think I stupid one?
Treat me as a normal people..
I hate the feeling,
the way you see me,
the way you speak,
the way you act and react
the way you do..
I not understand at all..
Positive and negative side,
which one should I choose?
Help me., pls...

A special Week..

Unexpected and unpredictable..
I had a shock in my life.
She called my name, but with a reason behind..
She changed to here, but when I asked her why,
she refused to give me the exact answer.
However, I probably will know, and you might never know.
You found a group, just to say good luck to you.
"Help me", a very very unfamiliar sentence from you to me..
It was too late, sorry to say that.
I can't lend you a helping hand.
How come at the urgent and vital situation,
you will just think about me,
call me,
ask me??
what can i said,
just at wrong time and wrong place..

Today, what I eager for so long time,
since that day I started to know about you,
today,
at school, at noon,
the thing was happened and the situation is what I take for granted for so long..
face to face, in same table..
I have make it.
But some weird thing happen.
At that time, I felt bored and restless kept seeing her.
You seemed so weird, the way you think..
I want to hear your sweat tone.
However, when I came back, I started to think about her, miss her.
how weird am I..
one positive side, one negative side,
which one should i choose??
[I still like you, but do you?]

webpage

Last sem keep on play programming...
this semester,
webpage..
i want to do my own server..
slowly study la..
php code,
i am chasing you...

Forget And on cloud nine

This few days,many stuffs had been happened.
too many things happened in a short period
And finally come to a conclusion..
switch（case 1)
To whom you are used to be..
I would like to see that..
World hasn't end yet.
Stand up, be confidence..

switch( case 2)
Forget all the past,
taking my new life journey,
you all will no longer at here,
gone away,
go to a place,
that is very very very far from me..
Pointless to know about you
hopeless to gain back what I take for granted for
useless to take care about you,
heartless, that who you are.
brainless, that actually you pretend to be..
I get the result I want..glad to hear that.

switch( case 3)
I won't be so stupid anymore..
I take my path,
you take your road..
You deserved to get it..
Revenger, that who am I..
Extreem overjoyed.
I was on cloud nine..
A nice day,
the day was prefect of my standard,
It will last for a few weeks time..
I hope..

误会？了解?活该？可怜？

误会？了解?
今天，我明白了。
那时我自己所想到的，
是误会你，还是终于了解你了？
今天你的行动告诉我你的答案。
最好没猜错吧。。
关心你是多余的，
体谅你是废的，
照顾你是我自己蠢，
装的，真的不懂？
那一天你问我的那两道问题，
我还是不懂你要什么。
你要玩，我就陪你玩，
今天有人告诉我，
不要去管她，
我听你的。
当天，
我告诉他故事，
换来的一个结论，
如果可以，忘了吧！
不值得。
you, ptd.

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活该？可怜？
在同一个时间，
同一个地点，
我知道了真相。
要说你们活该，
还是要给你们关怀，
可怜你们？
真的很矛盾。。
难怪上次拿衣服时看到眼眶红红的。
你不知道你们之间发生了什么事，
你却告诉我一些你的感受，痛苦。
我又能做些什么？
我只要告诉你，
再过两个月，
我就离开了，
好好照顾自己。

心

过度的关心变成溺爱，
过度的溺爱成了厌恨。
心太软，
做不成大事。
你今天对我说的每一句话，
证明了我很傻。
我会牢牢地记住你那一番话。
所以，
心要狠，狠，狠。

狠

The leisure walk,
wake me up from something.
I no longer be there.
Situation had already changed.

不要让他人来左右我们的选择。
克制自己，
宽容自己，
保护自己，
相信自己，
期望自己，
坚持相信自己所作的决定是对的。

不需要别人的同情，
收回他们的虚伪，
我心领了。
学习聪明，
不问他人，
问自己。
学习聪明，
不折磨自己，
不让自己堕落，
振作起来，
去面对种种挑战。


不小心爱上了她，
也不小心梦见她，
不知不觉讨厌她，
渐渐的想忘了她。

心要够狠，才能做大事。。
不要优柔寡断，
下了决定就要去做，
不要破坏了自己的原则。

what u want?

You time management dam well..
Really in time..
The in time is out of our expectation.
Congratulation, you will be the one who being fired first..
Well,
if you don like it, said it..
you can just go home and play whatever u want，
do whatever you like.
I rather did what you need to do than seeing you there,
having nothing to do.
And still ask me anything wrong..

If you want to do it, keep on..
I will accompany..
The game never end..
Still in the progress..
Come on..

I already control my anger and emotion.
I don want to spoil the atmosphere as one of our members has her birthday today.
My patient had limit..
Don try to overlimit.
If burst, no good nah..

Command and Conquer General Zero Hours..

In two minutes time, hard enemy base flatten..

人心与人性

人心的阴险，
随着时间的流逝，
渐渐的，
显露出来了。
心中充满心机，
计谋，手段，
狐狸尾巴漏了出来。
这是天性，还是环境影响的？
人之初，性本善，
还是，
人之初，性本恶？
这世界是多么的黑暗，
这社会事多么的现实，
但，
更黑暗，更现实的，
无所不在。。

Hierarchy.
behavior，background, appearance,wealthy, status
You follow the another way round,that is upside down..
If I have the opportunity, I will close my eyes and let "it" pass by.
它对你来说，
是多么的重要，
反映了社会的现实

天真无暇，
我们来形容小孩子，
他们，
没有阴谋，
没有野心。
什么是尔虞我诈，
他们不知。
什么权利，物质，爱
他们不懂。
扮无知的人，
看起来人缘很好，
戴人喜欢，
但，
最险恶，最狡猾的，
就是他。
三十六计，
用了几招，
就够了。

星星

那一晚，
满天上挂着星星，
星星多多么的美，
颗颗都在闪烁。
星星，
把这黑暗的天空给照亮了。
有时候，
我们会发现自己，
目不转睛的望着一颗最闪亮，
最亮眼的星星。
当我们很想去握着那颗星星，
我们却发现自己，
无能为力。。

在人生中，
我们就像在天空里，
寻找着最闪亮，
最亮眼的星星。
当我们锁定目标后，
觉得自己距离那颗星星是在太远，
太远了。
也许，
我们选错了星星，
看上了一个拿不到，捉不到的星星。
那星星，
离我，
好遥远，好遥远。
直到有一天，
我们再也认不到了，
那颗我们想要，却要不到的星星，
因为，
天空里，
出现了另一颗闪亮，
亮眼的星星。

News

Date:5.3.10
Time:Evening
Venue:Somewhere at westlake
Person:someone
Event:spot someone
Explanation: I eager to see her. But when I faced to face with you, I have the feeling I don want to see her.. I have lots of things to tell you, but when spotted you, no words coming out from my mouth.Why ar??

Time: At night
Venue:somewhere at new town
Person:somebody
Event:quite night
Explanation: We spoke nothing on the journey to there. nothing much that we can talk about. Is I very bad in communication or public relation?
Else is it a torture going out with me?
I do not understand at all..


Date:7.3.10
Time:Ten minute to the midnight
Venue:home
Person:L V
Event:M.S.
Explanation:What are you thinking about? Same answers, same responds..
Be straight and be steady.. Don walk around it,but toward it..
I think I have to study how to communicate with people..
Dull Man

The things I did The whole Saturday Night

The five pieces fill up the square.


How about if added a small piece into the square.


It still fill up the square and contain six pieces.
^^

4.3.10

Saw her at westlake and have talk..
First time in a close distance.
After reaching home,
something happened.
First a few sentences shocked me a while..
My mind went blank for a moment..
You will have such respond is normal.
If for me, I will also have the same feeling..

A person will throw out things honestly are at the very first moment,
and you had already show it to me..
After than you just know what you had said.
Please mind your P's and Q's next time..
It will be worst if you do it and instilled this bad habit.

Anyway, I also apologise to you..Making you misunderstood, I sorry to that.
And u too, no need to say sorry for many times just because of it..
Chill..
Hope we will be back to normal soon..
I need time to digest the things. I fervently hope that it would not take a long period of time..

3.3.10

Today in school,
my friends wanted to take the notification result slips at Block A,
asking me whether I already took it or not.
I had already taken it, so that I had the opportunity to see her
She asked me did I really forget about her??
I kept silence for a short period.
Honestly, I would say NO..
This semester onward, I have no mood to talk about it.
At that night, I still recall back what had happen between us.
Everything always come to the end.
I would be here for two months, after that I will leave and move to another city to study.

The distance between us, really far and far.
We are impossible, this very first thing I already know since the first time I talk with you.
I already become more mad what you think who am I..
You would never know about it..
The time left me to have a look of you from a distance become lesser and lesser from days to days..
Two months, not very short and also not very long..
Just a blink of eye, it will pass..
Soon,
it will reach the time to say goodbye to you, Ah Chong...

2.3.2010

Things to be considered before marriage..
This is the topic to discuss in the lecturer class.
Materialistic, it is so important?
Money is not everything, we can do nothing without money..
But sad to say,
most of the people judge this world by the value of money..
I also not an exception..
Money? Is it so important to the human beings?
It is a principal factor that affect most of the people to make any decisions.
Vitamin M, 4C,the people are eager to have all of them..
Judge this world by the value of money, money make everything,
no money no talk..
All in their minds, are all about $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$...
My friend even told me,
Have money, you can own the world..
Having thousand, million or even billion of money,
do it really make sense?
Being materialistic, wearing branded clothes, pants, shoes,
have bungalow, sport cars(Lambo), wearing luxury jewellery.
Being wealth are the dreams of all the human beings in this world,
no one can denied it..
No matter how much money you have, if one day,
the death is just knocking on our door,
it will be
钱在银行，人在天堂..