The diary of the last day of year 2009

Tuesday and Wednesday had two tests respectively,
Thursday had talk show presentation..
Dam an exhausted week..
Wednesday morning, I heard from my mum that my dad met with an accident,
it straight make me a wake.
Huh, fortunately, he was now safe and sound. No injuries.. God bless him..
From my dad, i knew that when my dad was driving in the middle of the road to Penang,
suddenly a iron piece hit the front window screen and it eventually scattered by then.
Really scary. If that iron piece large enough and travelled with higher momentum,
I sure wont be here writing the blog..
佛萨保佑，还好爸没事！！
I dare not imagine if something happen to him...

This afternoon talks show..
Thank to those who helped us in the process.
I also like to take this opportunity to apologize to all of my friends,
in which I had said something wrong or make u all unsatisfied..
Thank to my group members, U all did a great job..

Blue Shirt 姐姐: thank for fetching me to school by the car and with all the things.

hoay yan，red hair: thank for helping in process of preparation of talks show..
Beh: thank for ur make up things, shirts, shoes, and sacrifices ur class to help us.

xinli, gigi, li ting: thank for helping me make up.
Special to li ting: hmm. what u had done? haha..

Just now go to eat steamboat at kampar hotel, not bad..
later go to westlake and celebrate new year, welcoming the year 2010..
later go to mamak stall with all my TD friends..
Happy New Year.
虽然不能一起向2009年挥别，迎接2010年的到来，但愿我们能在将来留下美好的回忆，友谊不需要长长久久，又一辈子的时间就已经足够了。我们之间的相遇很偶然，很奇妙。茫茫人海中我们认识了彼此。那美好的回忆，会永远的，永远的陪伴我走完这一生。新的一年，新的开始！新年快乐

承诺

这是我对你的承诺，
还是我对自己的要求，
我自己开始不懂了。
要忘掉一个人，
的确很难。
明知道那是一个没有结果的结局，
但是，
我还是这样，真的很傻。
聪明是好是坏，
没有人可以给我一个真确的解答。
我就是克服不了自己，
继续她们所谓“变态”的“生活”。
这也是对那两老的承诺，
承诺，
以一种信任，
我能给你们承诺，
我就要做得到。

我是不是为了要忘了她，
而去寻找另一个代替品，
来代替你的位子，
这未免太可笑了吧！！
一个不可能的结局，
不可能的开始，
该忘了她吧！
不要让她左右你的生活
有人告诉我，
现在我们在大学里，
就要享受大学里的生活，
这样人生才不会乏味，
不要以学业为重，
放开一点，
让自己有休息的空间。
你的好意，
我心领了。。

刚才考试后这样说你，
很抱歉，对不起，
请原谅我是无意的，
我真的无法接受，
这一次的失败。

失败，
就是成功的开始。
两老，阿敏！！
我对你们的承诺，
有一天一定会做到，

Don call me, ok?

I no need anyone pity me,
I no need ur "pretended love"
so u just keep it in ur heart,
give to others that need it,
but not me..
Don do it to me.
I don like.

If u scare just tell me,
If u don like just inform me,
If u want to reject just say it,
I not as stubborn as a cow..
Don do it ok?

Ok well, I know I not as good as him/her.
I know I not as stable as him/her.
I know I not as soft as him/her.
I know I not as polite as him/her.
I never deny..
I know I not as good as him/her.
Try to cheat me,
not as easy as u think.
Try to bluff me,
U can if u manage to deal wit it.
What's wrong when a person too clever?
Isn't it a good thing?
but why??
Just now someone ask me did I cry when I am here?
Hey, please, I also human, my heart is fragile, ok?
If you don know me well, don understand me well,
don make any conclusions about it.
And stop from saying me "BT", I don like it.
You think who are you? You not a part from me,
so don call me ok?

Whatever ur unsatisfactory,whatever u don like,
whatever told me, no need keep in ur heart..
So whatever i don like,
don do it to me,
don call me, ok?
I no need any pities from u,
I no need ur care,
I can take care of myself,
so don do it to me an call me, ok?
If u don know me well,
don understand me,
better keep ur mouth shut.
If u don talk, no one will say u dumb.
don call me, ok?

我不需要你的同情，我不需要你的虚心假意。
不了解我的人，在你讲话之前用你的大脑想一想，
要不然你的头脑会生锈。
天算不如人算。。
不要以表面判断一个人，知道吗，乌龟。

22.13.2009日记

昨天和你聊天，
没想到你会叫我读书，
但是今天考试后，
我无法做到了。
是你变了，
还是那根本就不是你？
你变得和我印象中的你完全不一样。
冷淡的你，怎么和我开玩笑起来？
你还是我认识的你吗？
我还是真的很不明白你到底在想什么？
你告诉我好吗？我真的很想知道答案。

你为何这样，我真的摸不着头脑！
今天看见你，你还是笑笑着，
什么都没说。
我这黑白的生活，
会全黑了，
还是五颜六色，
还是未知数..
你突然间的出现，一会儿又消失了。
今天，你看到了，也匆匆忙忙的走了，
什么都不说，什么都没问。
如果时间能停留着，
我希望永远停留在那一天！
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今天
坐在我旁边的她，
显得很不自在,
朋友还问有什么感想，
其实我。。
不知道要给什么感想！
你很勉强，不是吗？
这是第一次，也许也是最后一次。
你很羡慕那些很聪明的人，其实你也办得到，只是懒散害了你。
天上的星星在闪烁，明亮的月亮照着大地，
这道月光，照亮了你的未来。
加油吧！
________________

你怎么了？

这几天，平时和我msn的GM没上线，
所以就没有联络了。
也许她回了hometown和朋友去玩吧！！
今天的晚上，
真的很意外，
不在我预料之中，
他.............
突然间msn我，
问了一些关于我PM的问题，
[如果人生能从来， 我愿能成为天上的鸟儿， 自由自在， 无忧无虑地蔚蓝的天空飞翔..]
为什么我希望成为一只鸟？
其实还真的很多原因，非笔墨能写完的！
GM,test,assignment,presentation,report,result,friends, and you..
all are related.
还说了我们long time don see..
你到底怎么了?
你说你很闷，
以前的你从来不会告诉我这些东西。
你是以朋友的身份来和我聊天，
还是什么？
我真的不懂你在想什么？
问你，你却不告诉我原因。
有什么难言之处？
你怎么了？
不像平时的你。。
也许是我想太多了。
你好好照顾自己吧！

汤圆记！

最近不知道是不是太闲空，
昨晚，
我们几个浩浩荡荡地来到了拉拉仔家做汤圆！
首先来好好的，突然间，
那几个艺术者乱乱加色，
结果五颜六色的汤圆出炉了。。
过了一点时间，
他们还玩起了糯米粉大战，
乱乱弄人，
结果地上也吃汤圆！
哈哈！！
那个马六甲的弄出来的汤圆很小，
还弄了几个奇形怪状，
不过还挺可爱的。。
那个sabah小姐的汤圆内有巧克力，
味道不错！！！
过后我们几个男的就在那里学“数学”
BIG 2.5。。哈哈哈哈，很久没玩了。
大约四点回家咯。
那个sabah小姐和猪娃娃很喜欢站在脚车上，
不过可惜你们不是她！
sabah小姐在当晚差点被我吓坏了，
以危险的方式载她！
还是死不了。
满好玩的。。
今天下午就煮那些没有巧克力的汤圆，
大功告成！
由于当天又考试，
所以提早了。
在这里祝大家“冬至快乐”。

〖小至〗　　
（唐）杜甫
天时人事日相催，冬至阳生春又来。
刺绣五纹添弱线，吹葭六管动飞灰。
岸容待腊将舒柳，山意冲寒欲放梅。
云物不殊乡国异，教儿且覆掌中杯。

〖冬至〗　　
（唐）杜甫
年年至日长为客，忽忽穷愁泥杀人！
江上形容吾独老，天边风俗自相亲。
杖藜雪后临丹壑，鸣玉朝来散紫宸。
心折此时无一寸，路迷何处望三秦？

这就是大学的生活！

以前的我，
很少会把这种东西当作宵夜。
但是来到了这里，
这个东西成为了填饱我肚子的牺牲品。
这就是大学的生活吗？
宁静的夜晚，
平静的道路，
寒风徐徐，
加上毫无味道的干捞面，
真的“耐人寻味”。
宁静的夜晚，
一阵阵的寒风，
不知不觉地我的心，
被那寒风吹冻了！
至今，
还是找不到适合我的炉子，
仍然左手牵着右手，
走在宁静的道路。

小考，报告，表演，任务，
这些死乌龟，
把我压得快喘不过气来了。
这就是大学！
大学阿！大学阿！
你怎么这么折磨人啊？
渐渐讨厌这里的生活！

有时候我在想，
聪明是不是一种负担？
每个人把聪明的定义放到哪里？
聪明？
怎样才算聪明？
你的那一句“appreciate what u have now",
是什么意思?
我和你之间，
难道除了课业上的问题，
就没有什么好谈了吗？
在你身上，
我仿佛看见她的背影。
难道这就是大学的生活？？

读书，
到底是为了应付考试，
还是增加知识？
在大学里，
真的除了读书，
没有其他东西做了吗？
怎样才是大学的生活？
谁能给我一个明确的答案？

累了！

真的累了！
心，身，
都累了。
快喘不过气来了，
最近自己也觉得自己很奇怪，
不像平时的自己？
到底怎么了？
竟然还把日期给弄错，
真好笑。
还以为下下的星期才是圣诞节，今天是九号。
怎么了？
自己与往常不太一样。
是不是把自己逼得太紧？
压力过大而造成的？
还是病了？
把自己搞得人不像人，鬼不像鬼的样子。
每天不是吃饭，上课，就是读书，
顶多花一点时间来写部落格！
那几天都睡不到六个小时，昨晚例外罢了。
我快崩溃了！
想到明年去Setapak，
很真的很不喜欢那里的环境。
我又不要转系，
谁可以教教我，
我应该怎样做才好？
其实我真的很希望我能像你们这样，
乐观的面对人生，
可是，
我办不到！
如果人生能从来，
我愿能成为天上的鸟儿，
自由自在，
无忧无虑地蔚蓝的天空飞翔。
但是现在这不可能实现。
我得放松脚步，
享受这美好的世界！
如果我解决不了自己的问题，
怎样去面对他们两老呢？
加油吧！浪子！

15.12.09日记

今天满专心上课的！
到了午餐后不知不觉睡着了，
却被连环不断的笑声给吵醒了！
你们的声音，
amplitude和frequency很高咯，
高到学校墙壁都裂了！
醒来，回头一转，
竟然是你和你的朋友在搞怪！
”不眠，费时教也。蠢，悲也！罢了”
“吾虽蠢，知尔心也”
PSP，
今天那个拉拉仔又抛弃我了，去找米奇老鼠，
结果被他那个十三年交情的朋友射他！
化学，
闷咯，结果没怎么听课！
我旁边的那位repeat student，
骂人一流，
她曰“他妈的，打什么打”。
小辣椒，够辣，够酸！乌龟！
PSP test：无言！。

一分达人！

昨天，那位陈小姐在我们做完实验后份考卷，
结果，
又差一分！
很邪门咯！
数学也这样
成绩拿到了，
Voo小姐就开始了他的口头禅，
变态咯你！
另一个又siao eh！
晚上有一个说geli lo..
今天早上，那个米奇老鼠游学她的同性伴侣：“变态”，
真是近墨者黑！哈哈！
知足？
记得有一次，她告诉我，要我appreciate what you have now.
可是，不认识我的人，都知道我的字典里没有“失败”“知足”这两个字！
回来想想，我是不是对自己的要求太高?
80也是优等，100也是优等！
为何要100呢？
原因就是好胜，
我真的还不懂，这到底是好处还是坏处？？
它会成为我成功的绊脚石，还是障碍物？
我真的不懂！
有时也很讨厌自己，为什么会这样？
为何不像其他人这样？
这样的想法，
还是一个无言的结局，approach infinity!
那个大猪害怕我精神分裂，
放心吧，我正常的很！
那两老还等待我毕业的那一天！

不可能的期待！！！想想吧！FROM：失败的人

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另一个她？？
从你身上，
我看到了她的影子。
仿佛让我走到以前的日子。
你，
真的很像她，
只是外貌不一，
音桑不似，
性格，思想大同小异。。

我会怕那种感觉，
我不想去想它，
不想去回忆它，
那痛苦的回忆，
让我，
渐渐的，
不想和你谈天。。

完全一样的性格，
完全一样的思想，
只是，
你的想法没她那么远。
等待了，
一个不可能的期待。
我真的很失败，
一个很失败的人。
考场上，没有问题是我不懂的，
没有问题是不会的，
没有一个问题是不明白的。。
但是，
我真的无法了解你们想要的，
你们需要的，
你们所要的，
我都无法给让你们满意的答案。
我，
是一个失败的例子。
与其把时间浪费在你的身上，
不如自己做好自己的角色。
这些事，
得到的结论是：
当回自己，
学生是最适合我的角色。
我就是我。
佛曰：“不可说！不可说！”。

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我真的不懂你来搞什么热闹，
这就是你所说的。
你，
为何这样做，
对你什么好处？
你这样做，
你会开心？
忍耐是有极限的，
一个人的忍耐爆发后，
后果会不堪设想。
也许你不懂你自己做错了什么事，
但是，
劝你，
做什么事前想一想，
想想你做了什么，
我相信你自己还是会有分寸，
最好明白自己在做了什么，
干了什么。
俗语说：“人不犯我，我不犯人。”
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End

Bored

Assignment,Test,Presentation,
Attending Lecturer Class.
Attending Tutorial Class,
Practical class,
Did the almost cost my life report,
The hectic schedule, make me almost cannot breath..
The monotones lifestyle,
I have already felt bored with it..
for(true)
{
everyday daily routine;
}
when i can end this programme?
I have no idea..
I wish to terminate this programme. but it met with little success.
When will can I end it??
End.

Waiting!!

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The sorrow of the life,
the winter of this year,
the thunder,
boomed above the sky.
The heaven
unleashed its fury to the earth.
The wind,
blowing toward my direction
when i am waiting in the rain,
with a broken umbrella.
I was shivering with cold,
waiting for you.

Slowly,
my heart have been frozen into ice cube.
However I still waiting.
Everyday having the same routine,
boredom had set in,finding something new to deal with.
K.M.
Will you be my heater, melting the ice cube?
or will be the residue, lowering its melting again?
I will not so childish anymore, put a great hope on it.
Everything depend on "oldmoon",how you arrange it.
I just accept it.
Can I call you "baby",
my dearest friend!

等待，
等待着，
一个不可能的期待，
还是，
一个希望的未来
无人知！
只有你知，天知，地知！
Until one day,
you can't recognize me,
because I am already not who am I,
I am another person of mine,
due to surrounding and environment.
Will this day happen?
END

8.12.2009.Diary

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我渐渐的，
喜欢星期二的日子，
我自己也不懂为什么？
每一个星期，
总是很期待那一天的到来。
今天的星期二，
很精神的在听课，自己也不懂那里来的精力。
上了物理课，午餐咯。
又遇见了她，
招手打招呼，就去医我的肚子，
然后就懒洋洋的和啦啦仔趴在桌上睡着了，
今天很奇怪的是，我总是觉得有几双眼在瞪着我们俩的，
错觉吧！！
PSP课，问了高音小姐，
总算解决了我面对的问题，
call function, repeat,
应该可以了吧！
化学课，她却坐在最后一排。
今天utar学生很勤力，来听多一堂课，
课室爆满了，很恐怖一下，
就一下罢了！
陈小姐开始教课不久后就开始骂人了，
可是她骂人不像骂人，火力不够，
她应该用alcochol会比较好，
又没烟，efficient又高。。
今天的课，很都要背，不过好像蛮爽的，
还不赖！kick来kick去，
displace来displace去。。
还有inversion。
很好玩。
今天的她好像特别勤力，rest时也在那里温习，
还是你本来就是这样，我今天还是第一次注意你。
今天看起来比较有血色，
不像昨天这样苍白。
Yer。可是叫她又不采人。
算了hor。
然后写speech outline，总算大功告成。
晚餐后看2012,无言。。
IF (want) THEN
Call u baby?
ELSE
Call u honey?
ENDIF
END.

Cute Day, Funny night!

Enlarge it if u wish to see.

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Sunday afternoon slept too much, result in I cannot sleep at night..
Doing tutorial and play my programming..
Someone called me to help her something..
Without my knowledge, we chatted until the wee hours in the morning..
Chat for one day one night, major about report..
Suddenly change to Yer and Hor topic.
Actually, she a bit crazy in some senses.
A bit funny and lousy.
But, I preferred it.
I don feel that since I came to Utar.
During secondary school, all my friends went insane,
crazy all the times.
That night, I felt that again.Thank.
Before going to bed, play my counter strike.
The picture above is my result. haha.
Try to beat me if u can.

This morning has class, as usual, I sure late..
To my utter shock,a lot of my friends lost in utar,they don know where is the venue.
Then lunch time..
When math lecturer, not bad, today he did correctly for the first time,
hope this not the last time for him.
Next,
Go to block A to pass up my report and console lecturer.
On the way to block A, spotted her at cafeteria,
Just greeted her,she replied with a smile,
Then I continued my steps
Accidentally spotted her at there too.
Today, she in spectacles, look a bit different and a bit haggard.
Perhaps last night she not sleep,
doing her presentations and report.
End

一天的回忆！

今天那两个先生小姐去了KL，
剩下我们两个去吃午餐和晚餐。
午餐阿，
和平常一样，
没什么两样，
过后又回家继续睡觉。

晚餐时，
无意之间，
我来到了我们第一次遇见的地方，
当时的情形，当时的你，
我还记得。
现在的你，坐在对面的已经不是我了。
现在的我，坐在对面的已经不是你了。
以前的滋味真耐人寻味。。

没多久，那里就播了僵死戏。
那个猪娃娃很可爱，
要看，但是怕看到恐怖情节。
看到一半，要吃饭时，
手里拿着汤匙，
手抖得比那位先生还厉害。
最后吃不下了。。

她看鬼戏，好像吃了震身丸，
好像这里发生地震了。
还打人。
很庆幸的是，
她没喊，要不然很丢脸，那里有这样多人，
真的是阿彌陀佛.

做我们前面那桌的情侣也很恩爱，
那个女的要喂那个男的喝水，
结果弄到了水，他们都笑了。
他算很好了，还有人喂，
而我呢？免谈吧！

看着，看着
那部僵死片，
那个猪娃娃竟然害怕了，
说走，我们回了。。
就这样结束了。
回到家，和往常一样，
继续和她聊天。
聊到一半，
结果就变成了，
part A，part B, part C，
什么colour,是不是黄色，
那里有？褐色啦。
其实还好啦！
就这样过了一天。

I have A Dream.

A blinking of my eyes,
exactly one month had over.
Everything was over too.
No residue left inside.

I have a dream,
I will try my best to accomplish my dream.
I will make my dream come true.
My dream will become a reality in one day.
It just the matter of time.

The first ray of sunlight filtered
across the cloud,
announcing the birth of a new day.

The birth of a new day,
indicate the new life of mine.
A new life,
without anyone and anything.

I will still be who am I,
I will make my dream come true.
My dream, my hope,
will soon,
become a reality.

A steady water surface,
never think that there is a safety place to swim,
who know how depth the water is,
what else inside the water,
no one will know.

The sky turned ominously dark,
Bolt of lightning could be seen flashing across the sky,
followed by bolts of thunder.
The scene seemed to be a heavy downpour,
however,
no one will know,
after a few minutes later,
sun could be seen hanging high up in the sky,
It will be a sunny day and the weather is perfect of everyone standard.
Never judge a book by its cover.

I have a dream.
The dream that inside my mind,
will become the added fuel to me,
encouraging me to make it become reality.
Time to a difference.
My dream, I slowly and steadily walking toward you.

3.12.2009 Diary of busy Day.

Take photo with lecturer and my friends.



Memories..

After two tests, today at night still has a test waiting for me to sit.
A presentation is still waiting for me..
Everything come in once. I almost cannot breath..
Today something happened during lecture.
Seafood guy being called to go in front of the lecture class,
Ah Ling calls him talked about his Ex-girlfriend.
If he say out the story, really unimaginable.
All of the UTAR will have a shock of their lifes.
But he used surprising fact, not bad, attention statement.

Then presentation lo. Actually I think i speak dam fast,
but i asks the Ah Ling, she says not really..
Quite confusing..
Math tutorial delivers math test paper,
Oh my God, all in my expectation,
2+2 = 0 really kills me from getting prefect..
Own careless mistake, nothing that can be blamed.
Today is the last day for my tutor,Mr Dancer teach us.
Nothing that I could do, but just to thank him.

PS test, ok la, no comment. Just have one wrong spelling,GG some marks.
on the way i went back, I saw her.
She was waiting for a people to fetch her back.
That seafood guy still ask her,
but she ignored.
I already talk straight with her,
to clear the gap between both of us.
Both of us, just friend, not more than that.
Wish you all the best and four words to you
"祝你幸福“

After dinner, fetch that small pig went back by bike.
on the way back, accidentally spotted Golden hair.
She still asked me who is that in msn.
speechless....

Goodbye, iceberg!

The lapping sound of the wave against the shore,
it was indeed soothing.
When something talk face to face,
it was embarrassing.

The coconut tree was waving due to the rhythm of the wind,
as if it gave me a rousing welcome.
When the story came into my mind,
it was a nightmare.

The crystal clear water inside the lake,
the fishes could be seen darting to and fro,
in the slightness disturbance.
But something came into my sight,
pollution occurs and all of the fishes dead.

You already tell me the truth at that night,
I already get the answer that i want at that time.
I believe what I see, what i feel, what i heard.
You try to ask or explain I not sure,
That's the end of the story of both of us,
become stranger is the best route for us.

There are nothing that you need to worry about it,
I am still who am I,
I treat my life as usual,
dancing in the rain,
walking alone along the lakeside,
Holding the right hand with the left hand.

There are no distinction all the time.
I am still who am I.
No need to be worried so much,
Goodbye, iceberg..
You take your path,
I take my route.
Be stranger.

That Night

Twinkle stars hang high at night,
The mountain is over my height,
You no longer on my sight,
Just a shadow of the light.

Walking pass your side,
Recall back things at that night,
I saw everything in my sight,
It was alright.

There are no candlelight
At that night,
Just your shadow under the light,
All seemed happened at yesterdaynight.

It was all up to your right,
There are nothing that I can fight,
During the twilight,
With the help of sunlight,
Seeing you go away from my sight.

It was an oversight.
Over that night,
I become a guy of great insight.
You won't be my bride,
I am delight to see that sight,
at that night.

I sat beside my bedside,
thinking about that sight,
What my mind inside,
Is all about that night.

I wish to go to the seaside,
To see the starlight.
Walking along the lakeside,
I already decide,
Hope you vanish from my sight,
I can't say you incorrect,
It is all about your copyright.