What the??

I born like that..
Being romantic-less
Being speechless
Being moody
Being thin
Being whatever I used to be..

Thin,not my fault..
I fervently hope I will become fatter.
I not as perfect as him/her.
I not as romantic as him/her.
Comment on God,
Set me fatter, pls.

Being smart,
The reason, the gap between us..
Why can't you think I stupid one?
Treat me as a normal people..
I hate the feeling,
the way you see me,
the way you speak,
the way you act and react
the way you do..
I not understand at all..
Positive and negative side,
which one should I choose?
Help me., pls...